Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Peace be with me - when the time arrives.

May 25, 2010

There are times I am afraid to write what I feel because I worry you may be reading and misunderstand my process. but for the first time in my life, I will not be edited by anyone's fears. Yes I miss the companionship of marriage, yes, I want you still, and most importantly yes I desire to swim freely. for those emotions, I shall never apologize. Were I to blindly walk away - with no feeling, I would be a cold human being, and that I never have been. I am passionate, I am flawed, and I imagine the impossibilities that I cannot write. I am imperfect and I will never again strive for flawless. I will be me and I will desire.

So if you read this, if you worry that I am confused, rest assured I am. Rest assured that my desire, my confusion, my passion will remain and I am comfortable in my own instability. You may not be - but that is my challenge to overcome, and for that I am grateful.

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