Friday, October 15, 2010

Day 5 - Abandoning the little girl (Maybe it's ok not to be perfect)

Oct 15, 2010

Accepting inadequacy and knowing that you will not be perfect at everything is a very grown up step. I'm not sure I am entirely ready to accept that I will not be able to master all that which I am presented with, but I am certainly willing to try. In the past, I've always played games I knew I'd win, and now venturing into uncharted, and perhaps un-winnable territory feels perilous.

I created a persona, a stage name, at the early age of birth - to perform and convince everyone that I was an expert. It worked and for the last thirty some odd years, I've fooled a few people into believing I might be totally adequate. But today, it's highly likely I failed. Failed from lack of preparation, disinterest, distraction and possible weakness.

So instead of being indignant and distractingly expressive, I will humbly accept that I am occasionally inadequate when pursuing perfection and that's OK.
10:25 PM

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