Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Day 2 - Abandoning the little girl (Let your sun shine through)

Oct 12, 2010

So I'm willing to face the fact that the little girl in me shouts for attention and secretly hopes for praise. I'm willing also to face that this may impede reaching what I really want to get to. After a thoughtful early morning therapy session - something I'd recommend everyone spend at least six months of their life investing in, I've discovered that my fear of reaching for the golden ring and achieving the truly successful is far less about a fear of success than it is about a secret need for relevance.

Last week I celebrated a fun and unexpected accomplishment. Something I'd worked long and hard for and was gleefully pleased with its result. We toasted the week with a wild and mischief seeking group of friends clearly in tune with the week's particular success. As I sat on a warm Indian Summer night, dressed in foxy red, watching a debaucherous and adventurous world pass by, I was reminded by a new friend that perhaps I needn't try quite as hard to command relevance. In fact, just being me, just being present, just being part of the world I love, might in fact be enough.

Let the extraordinary shine through without demanding awareness - is that possible? Is just being me and allowing accomplishments to speak for themselves realistic? Who will tell my story if I don't? Who will notice if it's not explicit? Is just being me, enough - and frankly enough for who? 

I'm certain I'm not the only one who's felt this way, so I pose the question to the other women out there, if we don't claim our own destiny and achievement, can they stay ours? Can we really trust that others will respect us implicitly, or do we have to demand it?

The answer may seem clear, but how can we be sure and how do we have the courage to risk relevance?

9:15 AM

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